Where’s the Motivation?

{Insert HERSHEY’S photo here}

{Then, the Dairy Queen Milkshake photo}

{Next, the Cleaning Fairy}

{At last, the nice clean, sparkling, awesome smelling home place I live in}

Ok, so today is my day off #1 (what normal people call Saturday), and according to the mess surrounding me, I’m suppose to be cleaning my house.

Fine.

But I don’t want to.

I slept til 3pm (which I can do since I do work the evening shift and didn’t get to sleep til 5am). (And also because I no longer have an annoying husband telling me to get my lazy a$$ out of bed because I’ve now slept 10 hours. WHO CARES!)

So once I forced my feet to hit the floor, I had to have my over-dose of coffee, check my email, visit my Facebook, fight off enemies on Mafia Wars, harvest my Farm(town), play with the dogs, eat some breakfast Cheetos, and, you know, just very important stuff.

So, now it’s 4:30 pm.

The “day” is almost gone.

The mess is still here.

The only problem with this is that the mess is actually talking to me. {HOLD the whitecoats!} The fans in the windows are blowing papers around. Papers that should be a) in the trash, b) filed, c) paid, or d) um, thrown in the trash, but instead they’re making really annoying noises. Like they’re screaming at me to come do something with them.

Or I could just turn off the fans.

Is it naptime yet?

Off My Agenda

I have got to be the world’s biggest procrastinator! It’s a characteristic of mine that I despise, but I can’t seem to fix.

I feel terrible! today because I’m leaving for work soon and there is SO much to be done! I’ve been off for 5…(FIVE)..1,2,3,4,…5 whole days, and I’ve done NOTHING (that typically would be) on a “to-do” list.

Maybe it has something to do with being my own boss at home now, and not really having someone else to, eh, please? I dunno. Maybe it’s more like… this is life on your own, ma’am, get used to it. YOU do ALL the work now. Well…quite frankly, I think that part of being single plain sucks!

So what it amounts to is that something’s gotta give. Quick! In order for me to be one step closer to my happiness, this problem of mine has got to be resolved.

Here’s things I’ve tried:

Rewarding myself for my own good deeds or accomplishments, doesn’t work for me. Mostly because if I can afford it, I have it in my mind that I already deserve it,  so I just go buy it. If it’s a non-material thing, like going to the park with my dog or doing something fun for myself, I do *it* instead of what I’m suppose to be doing. I mean, why not? The chores will be still be here when I get home…after dark. But then I’m tired…from doing fun things.

Lists – I used to make them. Lots of them. Then one day I started losing them. Or not following them. Or not even looking at them again once I wrote them. So, I quit making them. Save the trees, right?

Wrong. Well, wrong in a sense that I really need to be a “list” person. Save the trees, or save my sanity!

Deadlines – I work very well under pressure. . . when it’s for someone else. But not for my own self. I never can think of a good enough reason why *it* needs to be done by *then.*

Calendars – Are for appointments. I do have one on my fridge and follow those important things like the doctor, dentist, medication, etc. But for laundry, cleaning, errands, groceries, budget, household nonsense, etc. Naw.

Besides, my favorite calendar for that type of stuff is a planner-type, and me and plans … don’t get along.  Plus, my planner  must be neat, tidy and well-organized, or it’s void to me. So, yea, I go buy all the goodies to get my time management issues on track, then I procrastinate putting it all together because it’s such a chore. I hate chores!

Here’s an aside: at home I am a slob, but I can’t stand messes. By astrological definition, Virgos are suppose to be very-well organized individuals. Most Virgos I know are. Not me. At least not when I’m on MY time. I defy the odds with my severe case of procrastination. However, when I’m at work or anywhere besides home, I’m Ms. Organized Virgo to a point. Why?

I’ve tried SO many things, but what’s the point in continuing a list of things I DON’T do, when I should be making a list of things I NEED to do?

Procrastination don’t feel good. The effects of NOT doing things is more exhausting than actually doing them!

And today, I feel so crappy because I’m leaving with so many things un-done! But I didn’t feel crappy yesterday just living with these un-done things. ??

I don’t like to feel crappy.

Where’s the motivation to do things that I really don’t want to do but need to be done?

Suggestions? Please? Any and all will be taken into serious consideration. (And no harsh words about the fact that I just sat here for 15 minutes WRITING about it instead of DOING it. Please. )

Thank you in advance for helping me get one step closer to my happiness (and save my sanity) 

From my messy house,

Have an awesome day!